Mermaids and languages

So, for the company that I work for they have decided they needed a mermaid, and I have volunteered. But I need to make this mermaid mine. Something that is completely original, unique, or how else you wish to say it. It needs to be new. So, I have decided that I must make a language. One that is beautiful and one that could be sung for I dearly love to sing. There so far isn't much of a problem, I have researched how to write a language, and to make one that is truly complicated but with a full history, I would need at least seven years. I began thinking that maybe I could just start creating something letter by letter and as the years go on, keep a record of all language changes but better it in any way I can. For some reason, every time the word "language" comes up, I think of the color blue, like ocean blue.

Over whelmed

So, I am overwhelmed with a position that I have placed myself. It seems tat I am completely wrong in the fact that I know what love is. I thought that I had it for someone, then I thought I fell out of it. But I also thought you couldn't fall out of love....no matter who they are. Then I met someone, someone else, and I thought that I again fell in love, and tonight I feel like I'm not. I'm unsure about everything. I don't even know if I'm going into the right profession anymore. I feel like all I'll do is work work work...and never satisfy myself in any shape or form. I don't know how to explain how I feel...other than I'm not happy. I don't know what's what, and I long to just run away from everything. To just disappear...never to return. I've never wanted to be put into a situation like this. I always have dreamt that  that I would fall in love and then I would be happy every day of my life. Even if my day was awful and I was angry, I would go home to the man I love. Yet, I can't seem to figure out who that is. I just wish things could be so much easier. I don't know how much longer I can take this pressure. Things need to work out soon...or I ... I don't know what I will do....