Over whelmed

So, I am overwhelmed with a position that I have placed myself. It seems tat I am completely wrong in the fact that I know what love is. I thought that I had it for someone, then I thought I fell out of it. But I also thought you couldn't fall out of love....no matter who they are. Then I met someone, someone else, and I thought that I again fell in love, and tonight I feel like I'm not. I'm unsure about everything. I don't even know if I'm going into the right profession anymore. I feel like all I'll do is work work work...and never satisfy myself in any shape or form. I don't know how to explain how I feel...other than I'm not happy. I don't know what's what, and I long to just run away from everything. To just disappear...never to return. I've never wanted to be put into a situation like this. I always have dreamt that  that I would fall in love and then I would be happy every day of my life. Even if my day was awful and I was angry, I would go home to the man I love. Yet, I can't seem to figure out who that is. I just wish things could be so much easier. I don't know how much longer I can take this pressure. Things need to work out soon...or I ... I don't know what I will do....